Wednesday, March 7, 2012

This thing about Daisy - part 1



I have a thing for white daisies.
They are my favourite flower.
Other flowers suffocate me somehow...
Feels fake...or at times, too overwhelming like a red rose...

I was being very blunt about it when I told everyone in my family that I wanted a bouquet of daisies on my graduation day.
I don’t mind the teddy bears...Pooh or whatever.
I just wished for some daisies....

Well...at first, I was told that ‘it just slipped from mind’ and that they have forgotten about it.
I felt like not going and I even cried about it to my roommate...
I kept on stalling when my family said it’s time to go...

Although in the end I did get my bouquet from my Sister...
I was sincerely happy for it...
But it would have been better to say that ‘you remember but didn’t have the time to go and buy’....

Honestly, for me...
that would have been so much better than
‘didn’t matter’ and ‘forgotten’.
...Would have hurt less.

My lil Sis will soon have her graduation this coming Friday.
Mom called me earlier during the day suggesting that I ‘sponsor’ the bouquet.
For a split second, I was brought back to that day...

Although it was different from what I imagined it to be...
Although I was robbed off the joy of having my dreamed bouquet...

Though bittersweet the memory may be...
Thinking back on it now, I am forever thankful that I didn’t sulk throughout the whole day...

When my family dropped me off at college after the ceremony...
I remembered feeling happy and a little bit...
Just a little bit...I remembered feeling proud of myself.


“Yeah, no problem Mom. Sure”

Lil Sis, I hope yours will be no less meaningful and memorable.

2 comments:

Ermayum said...

so re u saying a little lie wont hurt?:)

moonshin said...

well, it depends...in my case, i was without my bouquet either way, so a lil 'sugarcoating' wouldn't hurt, would it? i dunno...i guess my expectation was running a lil too high at the time. ;)