one second

When the white curtains danced gently with the morning wind...
Within 5 short meaningless seconds you’d used to get through a door...
Which seconds do you think manage to capture the scene’s brilliance?

I think it was the third second when the sun hit the glass screen amidst the curtains halo...

Looking at a clutter on a desk...
a camera...couple of pencil studs – 6Bs...Sketch book...worn out eraser...and a London bus keychain.
Usual rubbish you’d find at any dreamer’s working place.
These common objects... in these moments...if wasted on a couple of snapshots...
Which do you think makes the best shot?

I think it was when the mind’s eyes see the person crouching low over the desk drawing an imaginary world, occasionally looking at the keychain...
A precious memento...
Makes the best shot of them all.
Just a split second as the thought passes through...before you captured it.

At times like these...sometimes I feel like I can stop time...
Or perhaps, is it just my processing ability a bit slow?
That I can see every second clearly?
The more accurate description I think...it is like I’m swimming in time.
Herm...I just made it worst with that. LOL.


Aside from this...this appreciation moments to see what there is and what they could be...
there are also seconds where I could make change...
seconds where I could avoid a person from getting hurt...
seconds where I could help remedy a sad heart...
seconds where I could make things better...
but most times too, I find myself unable to do so.

That sucks a lot of the time - it's frustrating.
I wish I could do something...
I always tell myself - stop being the observer...
it's hard...

but I'll never stop trying.
I want to understand...
I want to see things for what it is and what it could be...
I want to know a friend for what she is and what she could be...
I want to see the world for what it is and what it can offer.

never stop trying.
I'll live on every seconds I have.