Sunday, December 14, 2008
wishing for time to stop.
one of my old high-school friend is already married. she is a ukm student - married to a ukm lecturer. herm...how about that?
knowing that fact make me realize...make me say to myself...haa..i am already at this stage of life. how can life passes by so quickly...a year seems like a day and a day seems like an hour.
now, i feel like there is a gap between us...i'm standing here and she's there-at the other side of the road.
i am still watching animes...'quarrel' with my little sister about the tiniest thing (where at the end, it was always my little sister who has to give in)...playing soap bubbles (not so much now)...dreaming of an unlimited..unfathomable future...whereas she, has her life sets on stone.
honestly...i felt scared and nervous. what if people around me started to make expectations... some sort of changes in my behavior-in my lifestyle. they might think that some degree of changes is appropriate since i am already at this stage of life.
but how can i change? i don't wanna change. i want things to stay as it is...am i asking too much?
there are so many things that i have planned for my future and things like 'making commitment' surely not one of them. maybe...at least not for another 8 years.
and now, my big sister is getting married next april. oh, man! how i dreaded next hari raya. relatives surely be targetting me next! when can we eat your nasi minyak pulak...you know, that sorts of questions. hhhhaaaaaaa.......
but one of my closest friend told me that i shouldn't be scared...he said that there's nothing wrong with watching animes even when you're married. hahahaha...yeah, i think that's true.
fyi, i was one of those little girls who once wish that they could go to neverland with peter pan...
but now, i know that life has so much to offer...i want to be able to see the world...study other cultures and meet new people and to be able to share thoughts with them.
whaaaaaaaa...i don't know anymore! time, could you please go slower?
hehehe...great, now i'm crazy.