Lately,
it seems I've forgotten to remind myself to look backwards, instead of just
forward.
It'll
only make sense when we connect the little dots from the past to the present.
But I've
been too weary of the future that I was a little bit numb to feel motivated or
inspired or even to be comfortable to be 'me'.
I had a
little bit of a rough patch 2 days ago...my parents were so worried about me
but at the same time, clueless as what to do...
So they
kept on buying me my favorite food...
Only
yesterday, my Dad exclaimed, 'Thank God you’re eating! It’s gonna be okay....'.
Hahahaha...
I guess
I must have looked really awful for them to be that relief.
I was
being negative to a point I can’t do anything....
I sat on
the stairs of my house for hours what felt like where I should be...I didn’t
know whether I should go upstairs or downstairs.
Like in
real life, where I stand – not moving.
But I’m
ok now.
It
turned out not to be ‘one of that episode’.
^^
Yeah, I
am a normal human being. I do have them occasionally.
I forced
myself to come back to reality...
As a result, today, I’ve fallen down on my knees in the middle of the road with my jeans
torn, my knees bleeding and my sandal ruined.
Falling
down is my bread and butter, fyi.
Don’t
bother checking the road, I know its fine – it’s just me.
I forgot
that I was walking like I forgot to tell myself to listen when I’m sitting in
lecture halls for a lecture.
Definitely
gonna be one of my top 10 series.
I
watched this Japanese drama a long time ago, ‘Overtime’...
So, if I
am destined to take an ‘OT’ this time around, be it.
I can’t
give up.
I’ve
done too much to give up now.
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