Love OST

When I was a little girl...
My OST for love goes like this...

“When I fall in love, it will be forever...”
“Or I’ll never fall in love”
“In a restless world like this is...love is ended before it begun”

But now...
This is my OST for love.

“Take my life. Take me for what I am”
“Coz I’ll never changed all my colours for you”
“Take my love. I’ll never asked for too much”
“Just all that you are and everything that you do”

Different?
Or is it the same?

Honestly,
I’m not sure about it myself either.
It’s just that...
The fact that the OST has changed...
Has made all the difference in my life.

Me with Jaejoong^^

Hahahaha...bored, obviously. ^^
I was supposed to do some work...
But Jaejoong's calendar on my desk attracted my attention so much.
Naturally, i just reached for my handphone and started taking pictures.
This one...... it's accidental. hahahahahha

text message...

Today while I was in class, I received a text message...
From one of my friends.
She is in campus for a visit.
My first instinct was to decline and I did.
But she texted me back saying the offer still stands if I ever have a change of heart.

Honestly...
I prefer staying in my room...listening to songs...or go to the convenient shop to buy some vanilla ice-cream to watch Korean drama with...
Don’t get me wrong, I love hanging out with the crowd...
They make me laugh so hard every time...my cheeks are red.

Then, there is this...well, ‘tendency’ of mine...
I am a chameleon.
I’ll be whatever character that is not yet taken.
If the crowd already have a jokester, then I’ll be the one that laughs at the joke the hardest.
If the new girl seems to be struggling and lonely, then I’ll be her kind and helpful new friend.
Since, my crowd is very loud...so I tend to be quite – the listener.
I don’t know what me.
So I always thought that I’m doing them a favour by staying away – I don’t want to bring the atmosphere down.

After the class has ended, I catch my usual bus ride.
I kept reading that text message.
Thoughts like...
Maybe she just asks me out of politeness...
Maybe they need more bodies to get the party going on...
Then again...
Why am I being so calculative?
There is a whole new world going on outside my own.
Mine will still be there even if I left it for a couple of hours, right?

Herm...^^

In the end, I texted her back saying that I’ll join in too.
And you know what?
I’m glad that I did.

words...unspoken - hurt.

I was reprimanded by my sister yesterday.
Obviously, I needed it.
I didn’t know that the situation got so bad when I left home.
Her words made me pick up the phone and called Mom,
To say... I’m sorry.

I noticed that...again...
Words have power.
Things wouldn’t have gone so bad if I could just say what is on my mind...
I’m sure then, Mom would have understand and listened.
Most of the time, we did this to ourselves
Expecting others to know our words without us, telling them.

Most of the time,
Words go, unspoken.
What’s left is the feeling of being wronged and alienated.

Now I know...and I think you know too...
That this is the truth.

Don’t just stop
With the words stuck in your throat...
Don’t stop without you even really try.
Say what is on your mind...

It’ll be okay...
those who really cared, will listen.

Sky, Me and 'Epitone Project'

herm...been a long time since i last uploaded picture of my favourite-sky.
so here's one ^^
i won't used words to describe how i feel today...
this pic will tell you how i feel...

am listening to 'epitone project' as i wrote this post...
fits the mood just right...
hope you guys will have a wonderful day ahead of you =)

lots of love,
moonshin.

I smiled.

I scored a cool shirt yesterday while I was out on my usual trips into town.
A little bit of ‘Me time’ to clear my head.
The front reads ‘Same shit, different day’...
On some days...you don’t know how much THAT echoed my mood...
Can’t wait to wear that to class.

I got flagged down by a couple of salesmen...
God... the things they’d say just to get you ‘hoodwinked’...
“You are 23? Really? You look 19 to me”
“Still single? I’m single too~”
“Are you mixed-blood?”
Of course, I’m not born yesterday...I got away with polite ‘No, thanks’.
Small part of me was sincerely sorry...
Rejection is never easy.

I bought a pair of new wedges.
The one I had in mind was actually something different.
I did try that one on but it didn’t look good on me...
The assistant recommended me to get the wedges instead.
He helped me put it on...
I don’t know why but I felt a little flutter in my heart just then.
Herm...heels and wedges.
Sexy and nice.
A bit hurt there...

As usual, I stopped by my favourite shop.
Everything is Japanese goods.
Last time, I bought an umbrella.
This time around, I bought ‘something’ as presents for my best friend.
(She reads my blog regularly – don’t want to ruin the surprise)

On my way back on the monorail...
I saw a guy traded places with his girl – he didn’t want her to sit next to another guy.
My thought was that is nice.
My trip to town is really precious to me.
I enjoy browsing through the shop’s windows...
Listening to mp3 as I go...
But...I won’t mind having someone beside me.
That is what I thought.
Actually, I still think that way.

But as I waited for his reply...the ‘Me’ that is now...
Is tired of it...tired to play the game...
Tired to have butterflies flying around in the stomach.
So I deleted his number.
Even though, he did reply.

As I sat by the window of the bus...
As it carried me back to my college...
With the cool wind on my face...songs of love pounded merrily in my ears...
As my heart sang along with a smile painted on my face...
I saw the bus driver smiled back at me...
Despite my decision...
I am happy.
That is all that matters.