an important change in life....

starting next weekend, i will embark on a new adventure...

i don't know how it'll affect me but i have a good feeling that i'll return home as someone new.

i might be abscent from the blogging world for some time...so...

please, wait for me.

eventhough we are only half way through 2009...

but these last few months have been the most memorable ones for me.

i don't know how to explain it but....

right now...right at this moment...i feel like i'm finally 'free'.

i am free to live life the way i want it to be.

i just got my international pasport few weeks ago.....

the feeling of holding it in my hands is undescribable.

feels as though the whole world is within my grasp....

i will make sure to use it well.

so...take care, guys.

hope life won't be too hard on you...take a breather when it becomes to hard.

then, start again.

see you soon.

love, moonshin.

when dreams end

when do dreams end?
have you ever asked yourself this question before?

i used to think that when you failed, then the dreams will end.

but now thinking back on it...that's totally wrong.

dreams end only when you stop dreaming.
don't you agree?

the moment when you feel like giving up, is actually the moment when you can't the most.
that moment might be the one that will change everything.

all grown up?

i SEEK a lot of reassurance and answers from others....
especially, my Dad.

'will everything be okay?' .... 'do you think it's okay to do that?'
'i don't know what i want to do with my life...i don't know what i want to be'
'am i doing this right?' .... 'what should i do?'
........................

a call from home would usually remedied everything.
my injured pride. my disappointments. my confusions. my hurt.
- always recharge my energy to max -

but without realizing when...and how...
the word SEEK has changed to SOUGHT.
now, the calls and the long talk failed to bring the comfort that it used to give me.

my worries. my doubts. my sadness.
i have recognized them all as mine - i take responsibility for them from now on.
knowing that others can only help so much.... knowing that life is too precious to be wasted away...
knowing that i have so much to be grateful for... knowing that there must be a place for me out there...
gives me courage to face the world - to make my own decisions.
and that brings so much more satisfaction than i thought it would give me.

is it because i'm all grown up now?
just the thought of it makes me laugh.

....rain?

The weather is so hot...

yes..i can barely stand it myself. Go sit in front of the fan, it'll cool you off.

No...is it still hot. Now I'm starting to sweat like a pig.
Dad, when will it rain?

I don't know...but it sure doesn't look like it'll rain today though....

i remembered him going out of the house after that....
then, a couple of minutes later...i saw rain pouring outside of the window. The sky was vivid blue - no sign of gray clouds or anything...but still, it was raining. Curious, i popped my head out of the window. There...standing on the lawn, my Dad was holding a hose - pointing straight up unto the roof.

feel better?

yeah...totally.

Ha....it is sure hot today too....maybe later, i'll phone home =)

'Proud' by TVXQ

As i listen to the song's melody...as i delve into its lyrics...
and all the while, reflecting on the journey that they have gone through to get to where they are now...
to be able to stand on that stage...
singing 'Proud' in front of thousands of people...
living their dreams...

my tears...just won't stop falling.

Knowing their past lives...the hardships...the pain...
leaving home with just hopes and dreams...
....they were only 14.

to see them now - on that stage - it's a miracle.
it's a miracle.

thank you...now i know...
dreams do come true....

i'm happy ! =)

i've just received the Renee Award from Delwyn!
i am so happy and... so honored.
i must say that i didn't expect to see my name along with the others.
.........
thank you, Delwyn.
thank you always for your support, guidance and kind encouragement.

....means a lot to me...
i'm keeping it along with my other treasures =)

you and me and the sky

i took this picture earlier while i was going out.
can you see the thin-white line stretched across the sky?
it was actually, one of those small airplanes - with thick-white smoke coming out of their end -
sending 'sky' messages....to whom, i do not know.

a sudden thought hit me while i was looking at it....

at that moment, i wondered.... how many people were looking at the same patch of sky like me?
feels as if we're all connected...somehow.
staring aimlessly at the sky...wondering what's the line for...

the thought overwhelmed me....
the simplicity as well as the beauty of life - telling us that we are never really alone.

there are other people at the other end of the white line.
a promise hung in the air, that we'll meet someday.
because that is just how the world is....sometimes things just happen.
they just happen.