New Semester. New Chapter in Life....so it seems.... ^^

I've just been made the new Course Coordinator.

Hermm.....

I wasn't really listening when my HC explained to me about the job...

I only have less than 8 months of working experience...

At the time, my insides went jello~ and I felt the ground shaking beneath my feet...

Honestly? I'm scared to bits.

Yes, I manage things well.

Correction: I manage my OWN things well.

Yes, I am good at planning things.

Correction: I was my only subject whenever I planned things.

I know I am in for a roller-coaster ride starting next semester...

am expecting tears, stomachaches, cat-fights, eye-rolling - all the works.

Haiizzzz....and I still owe my supervisor  the third draft before the big presentation comes October.

I'm going to Manila in Oct too. For a conference.

One manuscript due several months ago~~

yeah, you read it right. MONTHS~~

Gosh.

^^

I am not sure HOW, but I'll just do it.

Things will be okay.....right?

I won't suck so bad that the university would have to shut down.....right?

right?

............................

In the mess of it all, my parents tried to play cupid last holiday....

OMG.

I put a firm stop to it.

They have dropped the subject.

Hopefully.

TC.

Purple Clover

I will have a one week holiday starting this Saturday...

Needless to say, I can't wait to go back home.

Funny enough, for all the things I love at home...I can't help thinking of the purple clovers nestle in a pot in the front lawn.

I have always been fascinated with leaves more than flowers.

Clovers among others, I also love autumn leaves and ginkgo.

Like magic, a bunch of purple clovers suddenly appeared in one of the flower pots one morning.

As old as I am, I am sure there is a logical scientific explanation on how it ended up there but...

this small happiness...

Let me keep its magic and romance a while longer.

Working Life

It's been a while since I last updated my blog.

A lot has happened since...

With work and study....I just can't seem to find the time anymore.

I have been working for 6 months now.

Even though being far away from home is never easy...but I kinda like this town. ^^

Nature is abundance and I have never liked the hustle and bustle of city life anyway.

Quite easily, I adapt well to my new place.

Everyday trip to work...driving by paddy fields and mountains...

kinda fill the void I feel every time I think of home.

Many of my friends doesn't know the real reason why I have chosen to do my phd away from town.

Okay, maybe not the whole story at least.

It takes 6 hours by car, back and from.

I enjoy the trip so much though because I look forward to crossing the bridge every time.

The bridge has a significant symbol being a part of my memories of growing up. ^^

I guess that is how it is with my life nowadays.

I almost never make a decision just because.

There is always a reason behind it.

While I am enjoying this learning process of getting new experiences...finding my place in this profession...

creating a name for myself...

But I am also quite worried at times...

that I am losing my 'youth'.

My young-hot-blooded self.

I feel like I'm loosing the 'adventurous' side of me.

But I am confident I will find the answer soon.

Why?

Because those who seek will find. ^^

TAJ MAHAL

Taj Mahal is one of the 7 wonders of the world for a very good reason...I'm more in love with it now I've really listened to its story....Glad I made the decision to go to India.

TOKYO TOWER

A visit to Tokyo Tower is actually one of the entries I've written down for my bucket list.
Yes, I have a bucket list.
I'm grateful that I get to see it with my own eyes and actually went to the top.
I even listened to Amuro Namie's Song 'Love Story' while i was up there....just as how I had it all planned out. hehehehe ^^

My First Autumn....ever ^^

Life: Just suck it up and laugh

 2 weeks visit to Tokyo, Japan.
Been wanting to go since forever...
I've visited Harajuku, Odaiba, Kasairinkai Kouen, Tokyo Tower and Fujikyu.

It has been beyond my wildest dreams...and only 2 weeks ago, I was in Delhi...I went to Taj Mahal and Agra Fort.

Looking forward to the future...I wouldn't be able to see or predict such events ever occurring in any chapters of my life....
I am, by all means, ordinary.
My background is ordinary.
I finished school, went to university and then, straight to grad school.
I landed myself a fellowship with a university so, a job is guaranteed once I've received my MA.
And I did. Next month, I'll start lecturing...

I love writing and researching...
and that paves the way to conferences and because of that I get to travel...
Living the kind of life I've always wanted since I was a child...

It hasn't been an easy ride....looking back, only now did i understand...

The days I made myself sit through boring classes...
The pain of not having means to get what you want...
Putting up a smile to people you'd rather smack down right there and then....
Having other people claiming your work is theirs....
Putting up with limited choice of food selection...
Worst of all...when you can only do so much to help Mom and Dad

The worries...the tears...the pain....

But since I'm all aware others suffered much worse....I just took it in my stride...played on some music in my mp3....and keep on walking and smiling.

All of that has given birth to today.
So...I'll wash my brand new car everyday if i wanted too.
I'll smile in pics i took during my trips.
I'll feel happy and proud of myself without feeling any guilt or constraint.
I'll do it all in moderation since I still have a long way to go...

My advice to self....just suck it up...it'll get better. Don't give up.